Christmas is coming soon. Yes, I said it. And much as we are asked to remember “The Reason for the Season”, I am celebrating the upcoming 3-year anniversary of this blog by remembering the reason why I started this thing in the first place…
Three years ago, I wrote these words in my very first post: “To consecrate is to set something aside for a divine purpose. On Sunday, the Feast of Christ the King  I made a personal act of consecration to the Sacred Heart of Jesus. Through this, I hope to become ever mindful of the presence of God and of my privilege as a child of God to reflect His divine image in the world. And this is the prayer I privately prayed then and now every day…” (To read this post, including the prayer, please click HERE.)
My life has changed since the Consecration. But, not exactly in the ways that I expected. I am busier than I have ever been, more honest and a little braver (of course, bravery and honesty go together.) Naturally, because of my disease, I am also physically weaker and much more tired (but, as this decline is part of my life, I wouldn’t exactly call it change.) This odd co-existence of strengthening in the midst of weakening can just seem like bad timing: getting my life together as my body really starts falling apart. However, as a Christian, I know it to be divine poetry – divine truth. “But [the Lord] said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.”
Oh, but how weak I am… And not just in the body. My spirit is not always willing and I have been frustrated by my lack of ability to commit to the Consecration and its basic requirements (a.k.a. tools to get me where I want to be: living in the fullness of reality.) One thing I did discover is that I was thinking about the whole Consecration to the Sacred Heart of Jesus the wrong way around. As I wrote two and a half years ago:
“Yes, I have to stop thinking about this in terms of my gift to God. This is about God’s gift to me. What do I really have that is truly my own? I can give nothing to God. God gives everything to me. I can do nothing for God. God does everything for me… And through me. I, with the power of the Holy Spirit in me, merely use my God-given soul to acknowledge and surrender to the inevitable truth of who I am.” (For this post, click HERE.)
Yeah, simple. But, really, profound. And only happening by God’s grace continually working in me.
You know, I don’t even say that prayer from my first post every morning anymore. Not because I don’t want to, but because… well, I guess because I don’t want to enough…? Rather than beat myself up about my laziness and forgetfulness, I changed the prayer to a song. And, now, I sing it every day. Some days, I sing it more deeply, more meaningfully, than others (just as, some days, I sing it more in tune than others) but I keep singing! You can read more about that by clicking HERE.
Finally, I mark my blogging anniversary, which is, most importantly, my Consecration anniversary, by sharing an excerpt from the post First Friday and the Universal Treasures of the Sacred Heart. It explains why I want to be consecrated, why I live as I live and write as I write…
“God loves Creation into existence, creating human beings with the capacity to naturally and supernaturally receive divine love and to transmit, to share, this love, agape, with others. This interplay of God’s love for humankind and humankind’s loving response to God is perfect in Jesus Christ. For he is fully divine and fully human. This interplay is his interior life, the core of his being – his heart. Therefore, to delve into the Mysteries of being, of life, to delve into the Mysteries of the Divine and the human, to delve into the Mysteries of love, suffering, and joy, is to delve into the Sacred Heart of Jesus – whether we use that term and imagery or not.
“For Christ is Universal. Every human quest on earth for beauty, justice, goodness, knowledge, wisdom, or peace is a quest for Christ. In every religion, and in no religion, whether spiritually intending or not, I believe that all honest quests for truth and love are seeking what is found in the Sacred Heart of Jesus. And it is the Holy Spirit that inspires, guides, and guards such seeking.”
Come, Holy Spirit! Renew me in my quest!
© 2016 Christina Chase
 2 Corinthians 12:9 NIV
Although crippled by disease, I am fully alive in love. I write about the profound wonder and terrible beauty of life while living with physical disability and severe dependency. Unafraid to ask life's big questions, I was briefly an atheist and considered other religions before finding, in God's choice to intimately share our humanity, what it truly means to be fully human. A revert to the Catholic Faith, I blog weekly and have written a book called It's Good to Be Here.