Trust is not something that I’m very good at. I like to be in control, feeling that I can manage the outcome to my liking. But, of course, I can’t always do that. Some things are out of my hands – almost everything is out of my hands.
When I first became a Christian, I was actually glad that I didn’t control everything. It was a relief to know that I wasn’t responsible for everything that happened in my life and the lives of my loved ones. I can’t say that it was a relief to know that everything is in God’s hands – that actually scared me quite a bit. But, if anyone is going to be in control, it should surely be the Creator and Master of the Universe – the One who knows best.
During my recent health odyssey, my problem with trust was made clear again. I prayed for recovery, for the end of new illnesses – but I also worried every time a new illness appeared. Legitimate concern is not a bad thing at all, for I do need to think about my body and make good decisions on taking care of it. But, worry – well, there is no room (and really no need) for worry in the life of a person of faith. And I worried a lot.
Sometimes, a song, poem, book, movie, or TV show can challenge our faith and inspire us to a better and closer relationship with God. I discovered the song below during my health odyssey (which is not quite over yet) and it cut to my heart. It is a challenge for me in my struggles – and a good inspiration to trust…
“Jesus, I Trust in You…”
© 2017 Christina Chase
Although crippled by disease, I am fully alive in love. I write about the profound wonder and terrible beauty of life while living with physical disability and severe dependency. Unafraid to ask life's big questions, I was briefly an atheist and considered other religions before finding, in God's choice to intimately share our humanity, what it truly means to be fully human. A revert to the Catholic Faith, I blog weekly and have written a book called It's Good to Be Here.