I thought it might be fun to ring in this new year with a poem that I wrote on the eve of the new millennium. No partying like it was 1999 for me that night, just recording the momentous event with a bit of off-the-cuff poetry. (Can’t think of a better way to celebrate, actually.)
Here it is:
December 31, 1999
perceptions of one day in
a countless string of days in
the endless circle of time; broken
dreams, broken promises, waiting
here on this hope of hopes to be re-Newed,
to be made whole again, flying
out with no regrets and no recriminations.
It is a fragile hope
made strong with bright planning, a tender, weak
and childlike wish teetering on the edge
of some desperation to be more,
to be better, to be worthy…
made confident with the loud
noises and shooters and bright flashes of color and light.
And as an animal with a mind, a mind
too clever for a world too tame,
we view a sunrise and a sunset with added significance,
we remember the circle of the seasons,
we witness the progression of time, wrinkles creeping up on skin,
and we wonder which will be our last sunset, when
will we slip out of time and have no play upon the realm of space;
ever so carefully we remember and we record
so that no sunrise passes without our acknowledging it
and our naming of it: Friday, December 31, 1999.
And when we name
we feel we possess,
and having days and nights as ours
we must be able to control;
and when the blossoms come round again
we give the year to our credit:
I have 25 years to my credit, I am 25 years old.
One hundred spring times will be called a century,
one hundred centuries will be called a millennium,
and from some point of counting, one human
man who read and wrote and counted without the number zero,
the collective Western human society has used
two millenniums’ worth of calendar pages.
On this night in my world,
with my people who have lived
with me while I have lived, we celebrate… something.
A fervent urge for renewal, for purging and cleansing,
for wiping clean and starting fresh, the fervent,
urgent, impulsive, inherent need for forgiveness
overwhelms our souls
so that our minds create millenniums
and our hearts sing Auld Lang Syne;
and our voices scream out after our own countdown
so that we may be bigger than ourselves and hold
for one moment
all the precious, pure freshness that was
the world’s on first awakening, that is
the infinite blessing of The Divine.
© 2021 Christina Chase
Although crippled by disease, I'm fully alive in love. I write about the terrible beauty and sacred wonder of life, while living with physical disability and severe dependency. A revert to the Catholic faith through atheism, I'm not afraid to ask life's big questions. I explore what it means to be fully human through my weekly blog and have written a book: It's Good to Be Here, published by Sophia Institute Press.