I was going to start my September update like this:
“Christina, how’s your memoir going?”
My reply: “Don’t ask.”
Yup. It’s been that bad.
Ever since I started my attempt to write my life story (my life so far), I’ve been waiting for … something. For some idea or theme — or understanding of what the book is — to come together in my mind, to click. How long have I been waiting? Well, I’ve been trying to write this book since my 20s, decades before the concept of my published book clicked in my mind. So, a long time.
Well, something has clicked. I don’t want to share much about it, because I’m afraid that it might not be what I hope it is: the click of a key in a lock, finally opening the book for me. I’m afraid my new excitement will fade, just like all of the other concepts and structural ideas have fizzled away.
Hopefully, this time, I can truly move forward on the length of the road to completion. And so all that I have to do now is carve out the time for the necessary steps and have the strength to keep writing. (Is that all?) Your prayers and encouragement are greatly appreciated — as is your patience!
NOTE: for the month of October, I’ll be sharing reflections from about 20 years ago. As it’s the month of the Rosary for Catholics, these reflections are understandings and insights that were gained on Christ, faith, etc. through Rosary meditations. While reading them, please remember that they were written a long time ago and not intended for public sharing!
© 2022 Christina Chase
Although crippled by disease, I'm fully alive in love. I write about the terrible beauty and sacred wonder of life, while living with physical disability and severe dependency. A revert to the Catholic faith through atheism, I'm not afraid to ask life's big questions. I explore what it means to be fully human through my weekly blog and have written a book: It's Good to Be Here, published by Sophia Institute Press.